I fucked without a condom….

I let him fuck me without a condom and now I’m terrified.

I met him on manhunt. His pictures were, in a word, undescriptive. Each one appeared to be of a different person. All I could gather was that he was young, tan and blond. His profile description was short but emphasized his love of the outdoors and yoga. I think thats what attracted me to him – yoga is something I often associate with inner peace and a matured sense of sexuality.

I drove an hour down to Kona to meet Erik. He said he had the keys to a nice, oceanside condo.

My initial impression of him was positive. He was a little weird and a little socially awkward – two personality traits that I sometimes find attractive. He also smelled like he hadn’t showered – another quirk that I actually found attractive. He smelled like a lustful, sweaty, cum filled man. I felt like I was choking on his delicious pheremones.

He offered me a beer and then followed me into the living room. He told me that he had been taking two hour yoga classes five days a week for the last year. I asked him to demonstrate a few positions for me – which he did with perfect grace. Usually I think people look like fools when ever they practice yoga – but Erik was perfectly coordinated.

Eventually the topic of sex came up. We discussed our past relationships. He told me he used to bottom but never enjoyed it, so now he was strictly a top. He said he knew how to make guys cum multiple times. Then he looked at me with a quivering smile and said “I bet I could make you cum five times.”

When he finished his sentence I waved for him to come sit next to me. He did and I, liike I often do to initiate physical contact, lay across the couch so that my head was in his lap. Then I sat up and told him to turn around. He seemed confused, but then understood when my hands started to rub his shoulders. I don’t mean to brag but I give the best fucking massages! I could feel his stiff muscles relax and soften in my grip. When I was done he turned around and started rubbing the inside of my thigh(probably my most unusual erogenous zone).

I took my shirt off and he followed. His body was incredibly attractive – he had a nice dark tan, silky smooth skin and a light dusting of blond body hairs. He had a bit of a beer belly, but even that I found attractive. He rubbed at my dick and we started kissing. He was an amazingly good kisser – slow and soft.

Then I pushed him back and asked him to take off his jeans. He stripped down to his white boxer briefs, which only highlighted his beautifully tanned skin. I licked his lips and then drew a line down his chest and stomach with my tongue to the waist of his underwear. Then I pulled the fabric back and took his whole dick down my throat. He dick wasn’t that long, and it had a really big mushroom head, but it was thick and appetizing.

When I was done he kneeled onto the floor and started licking my balls. For some reason my penis collapsed and softened right when his head got close. I couldn’t get it to harden for an excruciatingly long amount of time after that. I jacked myself off as he sucked on my balls and I still couldn’t get any wood.

Finally he moved his tongue down and started licking the bottom of my ass. The second his tongue ran across my asshole I felt blood surge into my penis like high voltage electricity. Blue lightning bolts danced across the shaft of my cock. Now I was charged, horny and ready to fuck.

I asked Erik if he had any lube. He said no. I said “Fuck, well I brought lotion.” He pumped some lotion into his hand and then rubbed it all over his hard dick. He came back and kneeled in front of me.

My words came out like vomit. “Ive never had sex bareback before. I’m scared. Are you clean?” The question sounded lame and pointless even to my own ears. “Yeah of course” he said, as if the answer had been painfully obvious.

In case you lost track, I was sitting on the couch and he was standing on his knees in front of me. He grabbed a hold of the underside of my knees and moved my legs back so that he could fuck me. He stuck his dick in and immediately I felt pain – like knife had been thrust up my ass. I pushed his chest back and told him to pull out. My asshole, agitated but hungry, spasmed in pain like a caged animal for a few seconds before calming down. The second attempt proved successful. His dick slid all the way into my ass until I could feel his pubes against my skin. The feeling of a naked cock in my ass was amazing. I could feel every curve and groove on the head of his dick. He started fucking me and instantaneously I felt the urge to cum. I let go of my cock and reveled in the feeling of his condomless cock sliding in and out of my ass.

He moved his head in to kiss me. I bit and sucked on his lip, feeling the dull vibrations of his moans. After a few seconds I had to move my head back and gasp for air. I rolled my eyes down and saw streams of precum oozing out the head of my dick. The sex felt amazing.

Only three or four minutes passed before Erik pulled his dick out. I looked down and was surprised to see cum pumping down the back of his dick in quick bursts. “Im sorry” he said, “it felt too good.” I was surprised because he had made a big point out of the fact that he could “last forever” before.

I looked at him with contempt and said “stick it back in!” He pushed it back in and I watched his entire body shudder with pain and pleasure as he moved his sensitive post-cumming dick back and fourth inside me. I could feel his hot jizz in my ass. I pulled my dick a few times and then burst all over my chest. Erik leaned down and nibbled on the head of my dick as the last few pumps of cum came gushing out.

I must say that was the best orgasm I have ever had.

Afterward we showered together. I tried to mimic the hot, sexy shower I had had with Grant, but Erik seemed more intent on actually cleaning up.

After we toweled ourselves dry Erik asked me if I wanted another beer. I told him it was late and I had a long drive so I had best go home now. He looked sad and said, in the most adorable puppy eyed manner, “Well, I guess you got what you came for” – implying that I had no interest in talking with him. “Yes I did” I countered.

Right before I left I noticed that he owned the same beanie that I was wearing. Then I saw that he had the same computer and computer case that I owned back in Miami. That, ontop of the fact that he and I had nearly identical taste in music, made me briefly entertain the thought that perhaps he was “the one.” The thought diffused into the quiet air like smoke. I cleared the silence by saying “We’re like brothers – our babies are going to be all deformed.” He let out a quick, awkward chuckle and I suddenly felt like a complete fool for having said that.

I grabbed onto his shoulders and kissed him before I walked out the door.

That was two nights ago. Since then I have had an incredible fear of HIV. I can’t believe I asked him to stick his cum dribbling cock back into my beautiful, warm ass.

He called me an hour ago and asked if I wanted to hang out tonight. I said yes. I don’t think I will be using a condom tonight – not after having experienced the pleasures of before. I am not going to make barebacking a habit – I’m just going to do it these two times and then wait till Im in a commited relationship. And this time Ill make him pull out…..YES I know HIV is carried in precum, but its a bit better.

To the gay guy readers – Have you ever had bareback sex? If so, how unusual is it for a condom concious person to fuck bareback a few times every once and a while? Am I gonna DIE!